Self-Health

I have the ability to usually stay firm in what I believe in. I guess because I have lost so much that I don't ever 'blame' God for my problems but I fully understand that He knows much better than I do and that I cannot do things better than He can. However, when I am in a bad place mentally I find that I feel split into there people... no, I don't think I am skitzo.. lol.... but I find me having my 'logical' knowledge of God... my physical self which is suffering the effects of my illness... and then there's my heart/spirit that unfortunately is pushed back during these times to watch from the sidelines helplessly. I am learning that I have certain imbalances chemically that are causing these problems in my mind... but I am learning also that I am focusing way too much on the 'illness' and therefore I am gaining many more 'spiritual' imbalances through these times. I need to remind myself that I am not these 'three' beings that I feel split into in times of crisis but that they are all part of "me" and "me" needs to remember that I need much more than mental health but I need SELF HEALTH!!